Today is a defeat. It is lost, it is a sad sad day. But not too sad, but I think my mind and my heart tells me so. Ruby, I guess someone stole
my precious ruby. It is too valuable( can even spell). I don’t want to make fun of Jack, but why did he say “Watch out” when I was talking to her?
I know it gets all personal and all but he just destroyed my love. I hope it is not destroyed. Ruby, I just can’t convey my feeling for you.
I really really really love you. Ruby, ruby, ruby. So ruby. Today, in Chinese class, I read the “7 habits of highly sucessful teens,” and I was
inspired. Really, it has so much good stuff. I even asked Mrs. Smith (my chinese teacher and last year’s chinese teacher. Many people think she’s
a b***h (don’t want to really say it)) Oh about Mrs. Smith, I remember last year, in tenth grade, Howard, at that time my P.E. friend, said that
she is a B***h. He said that everyday, someone in his class always gets in trouble and get’s biched by her. I’m telling you… You do NOT want to
get biched by her. She really makes you pay. I had her last year, and it was next to toture. She biched me to do my homework, saying I can not leave
for my next period (World History) until I finished my homework. I hate her. And I remember Bobby last year and Jospth ( Boy, I SUCK!)… LOL you
should have been there. ALMOST everyday they get in trouble and it is more like a humor class. Bobby talks back and forth plus Joseph (finally…!)
pissing her off. Boy, it always ended up someone gets the referals. And I also remember Bobby, again from Chinese class. He is also a bit** for some reason.
He keeps throwing paper stuff on me (he sits in the back) and boy I get really pissed off so one day, I collected the stuff he threw and showed Mrs. Smith.
She then got real mad (I glad! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):)) and gave him a referal. hahaha, poor loser, but how can a poor loser be poor?
Ok, I want to play my computer games so I’ll make this quick. I failed chinese class with a “D” grade even though I did well on the finals. Speaking of
finals, why can’t the finals be worth more than just the tiny 10%? Why can’t it be 20% or in college, 80%! Acutally, 80% isn’t enou***… never mind,
homework and tests are also important too. (I would had passed chinese 1 if the finals were more, say maybe 20%) Ruby, you are always in my mind, but
since you don’t love me… Oh, before that (and before I forget) due to the inspirtion of the “7 habits of highly sucessful teens” I tried to borrow the
same book during lunch, but I can’t find it. Instead I found a calander of that. Oh well, the bell rang and I better hurry up. So I checked it out (Too
bad I check Ruby out)… ANYWAYs, I read that during sixth period. My sixth period is to me a free period because cross country session is over.
So I at first was having a converstion with Ruby and soon Jack joined in. (Jackas*) I know, I shouldn’t talk behind people’s backs but this is how I’m
feeling right now. I was trying to talk to her and have a really intemate (spelling!!!) relationship talk with her, but I didn’t quite get there because
first, I was feeling shy, nervous amd afraid, plus Jack is here (playing the gutair) and second, oh ya, it’s because Jack said “Watch Out” to Ruby. He
might think I didn’t hear him, but I hear him LOUD AND CLEAR!!! heh, a twist of fate. I love her, and later when Ruby was in the gym, and Jack was
outside fighting against some guy (lol!), decided read the daily calender. The calender was great, I had a great time, and as I was reading I read
a pargraph that says that a depentant relation means that you are depentant on your girl friend, that your self worth is her, and that you “need” her
to live and to have self-esteem. It says that that is NOT REALLY LOVE and that pretty soon, it will be abuse. I wonder if that is true. I wonder if my
realation with Ruby is an indenpent relationship (meaning…oh I forgot to tell you, meaning that we don’t “need” or “depend” on each other for our own
self-worth) or a dependent relationship. I think it’s really dependent relationship because I based my self worth on Ruby. I surive for Ruby. I do my
homework and sleep and eat for Ruby. Without her I would be long dead. Period. Ya, I think it’s a dependant relationship (typo problems heh…). So maybe
the relationship is over. Ya, I think it’s over, but I will never forget her or how good she is in tennis. She said (I forgot when, either today, or yesterday)
that playing smoothly, she can hit the tennis ball 60 times (I’m 98% sure). I was like WOW, YOU CAN HIT THE TENNIS BALL 60 TIMES WITHOUT A FOUL (lol) OR
STOPPING?????? BOY (I mean girl) YOU ARE AMAZING( again spelling problems). So ya, today I went to washingtion school after dentention (sp) for chemistry
for not doing my homework. I tried to hit the tennis ball sixty times but all I get is 1, 4, 10, 18… ya, I’m not even half as Ruby, then I started
to hit 21,24,19,1 delete the last one lol. But then I GOT 39,50… wait a minute, 50? oh right!!! I almost beat Ruby and plus she’s third best in the
tennis club. So does that mean I’m the best guy (or man) in the tennis club. Wait, this can’t be true!!!!!!111 I’m so happy now. I’m sining a happy
song, thinking I can live so long… I’m singing a happy tune, wishing I can sing the blues… lolz Practice doesn’t make perfect, perfect practice
makes perfect. See ya!! Oh, by the way. I love Ruby.